Suksy's Pensieve

I was suggested this link by a friend of mine. I am an introvert myself and the link just proved it! I have visited a psychiatrist for my problems without realising that it is quite normal being an introvert! Thanks Prashant for helping me out to realise who I am! :) Being an introvert is not bad.. On the contrary, many of our celebrities like Thomas Alva Edison, Albert Einstein, Jane Goodall, Harry Potter (though fictional), Steve Martin, Tom Hanks, Mark Twain etc are all introverts.. And as Prashant told me earlier, when you are having thoughts, if you pen them down, it would be productive! I love to be alone, don't venture too much with a crowd and even when I am with a crowd, I have my own feelings and inner thoughts which will keep me occupied and aloof of what the crowd is discussing.. and many a time, when the crowd is having fun, I have missed out and when I am having fun, the crowd has missed out! :) I don''t make friends easily and the people whom I consider as...

The Lord surveyed the Ram Setu and said "Hanuman, how diligently and strenuously you and your vanara sena had built this bridge several centuries back. It is remarkable that it has withstood the ravages of the climatic and geographical changes over centuries. It is indeed an amazing feat especially considering the fact that a bridge at Hyderabad built by Gammon using latest technology collapsed the other day even before they could stick the posters on its pillars." Hanuman with all humility spoke "Jai Sri Ram, it is all because of your grace. We just scribbled your name on the bricks and threw them in the sea and they held. No steel from TISCO or cement from Ambuja or ACC was ever used. But Lord, why rake up the old issue now." Ram spoke "Well, Hanuman some people down there want to demolish the bridge and construct a canal. The contract involves lot of money and lot of money will be made. They will make money on demolition and make more money on construction...

Got work now... no more sitting idle... and would be more that's what I think it is going to happen now. Me got a system.. Got an internet connection.. And also got to know what this new job might turn out to be... and how many chances I would get to meet and interact with various people and all other stuff.. which I am interested in and which I had earlier spurned and was cursing myself for having spurned the same! Anyways.. now, I have an option to get back into my recluse! ;) And am happy for that!!! The coming weeks look hectic.. Lemme c.. gotta pause all my weekend plans for the next few weeks and check! :(

I'm officially "On the Bench" now.. wid loads of time to spare, no work to do! All these days, I was in a project waiting for the same to kick off and for the client to come over and certify that we are upto his expectations (effectively, the client to come and interview us!) Now, it has been officially announced that the project has been indefinitely postponed and we would be put in different projects as and when there would be openings.. So, 'm online again having nothing else to do!!! I cannot read any books (hard copy I mean) at the office and I don't have any ebooks here... So, am spending my time online! ;) Have been reading quite a few blogs these days... and am trying to gather inputs from them... I am in an assumption that I have bettered myself in the terms of blogposts when compared to my initial posts.... lemme c whether I am under an assumption that I have already become a better blogger or is it true!

Don't be shocked as to what's come over me... No, am not committing suicide in the sense of putting an end to one's life... I still continue to exist and will continue to be the same bugging bastard that i am!!! Deeply impressed by this article , I decided to do something on a similar line...... something what I have been trying on and off but wid very less success...I've finally decided to put my existance offline... Out of touch wid everyone who scraps me on Orkut, Out of touch wid anyone who chats wid me thru Gtalk... I will just be a recepient of emails.. will continue giving replies to all the scraps... but as a person, I will cease to exist online!! How does it work??? Here's how... 1) Never ever Login to Gtalk 2) Sign out of Chat in Gmail (Chat enabled gmail that is) 3) Do not login to Yahoo Messenger 4) Login to gmail once a day and at the same time, check all your scraps on Orkut, read blogs, comment on blogs, check blog for comments, put any new posts.......

I stumbled upon this link which leads to another link and which makes u ponder whether u r right in kissing the way you do.. well, lemme add my two cents to that! I'm pasting (as usual) from an email.. but will add on later: Article 1: Statement of Love: The Kiss 1. Kiss on the hand I adore you 2. Kiss on the cheek I just want to be friends 3. Kiss on the neck I want you 4. Kiss on the lips I love you 5. Kiss on the ears I am just playing 6. Kiss anywhere else Lets not get carried away 7. Look in your eyes kiss me 8. Playing with your hair I can't live without you 9. Hand on your waist I love you to much to let you go Article 2: The Three Steps 1. Girls: If any guys gets fresh with you, slap him. 2. Guys If any girl slaps you, her intentions are still good. 3. Guys & Girls Close your eyes when kissing, it is rude to stare . Article 3: The Commandments 1. Thou shall not squeeze too h...

How do i start??? No, it is not that i don't have anything to say.. i do have a lot to say but how do i put it all to have a post which has a positive outcome?? I have been getting these constricted feelings in my chest on and off and they are coming from the past 3 odd years.. And one common thing with the feeling is that i wud not be having any work... Are the two related?? I dunno. I have visited a couple of doctors and they say that there is absolutely nothing wrong with my heart or lungs.. it might just be a muscular spasm. Though I might be tempted to buy this analysis of theirs for the sake of my family and friends.. my mind feels otherwise.. There should be a reason as to why the spasms are coming so regularly.. more than once a month??? And again, this has been the case from the past two days.. twice in a row! The whole episode is something like this: 1) Black spots in front of my eyes.. 2) Partial blindness and Blurred Vision 3) Severe constricted feeling in my chest acco...

I am again wondering what is wrong in me or wid me or how is everything happening to me or how am i able to notice everything that is happening! All emotions come in a single day... so, unable to change the mood on facebook or update twitter or change the status message on Gtalk! At times, i feel very senti.. and mental at times At times, i feel lovable... and at times, lusting At times, i feel like the entire world is wid me... and at times, against me At times, i feel like jumping with joy.. and will get into depression the next moment At times, i feel that i don't wanna socialise and the same moment, I'd be on a call or on orkut scrapping or on gtalk chatting At times, i feel it better to keep quiet and not speak at all.. and then, i'd be blabberring all round At times, i feel like running away from the world.. and at times, i feel the world is extremely loveable At times, i think abt getting A's number and calling her.. and then, at times, i feel that it is not the ...