It is quite some time since I had a new post at my blog. Almost a week I must admit. I was quite busy all these days.
I renamed my blog from "Suksy's pages" to "Suksy's Blabberings".
I am feeling low as usual today!!! This feeling is so common now-a-days that I feel that it is just usual for me to feel depressed.
Depression, for me, often results in getting negative thoughts and that leads to dangerous situations. I either feel like hurting myself or hurting someone else. I really know that I am a psycho. A discussion with a psychiatrist gave me amazing info.. he said that it was just common for him to feel depressed too... and it is just a normal feeling in life. Amazing I tell you... even the psychiatrist is a psycho *Wink* Even he gets depressed occasionally *Smile* It is not that he should not feel depressed at all, but just that the way he told me was funny. He said that it is absolutely normal for me to feel depressed very often.
Did he ever consider that it might really be dangerous for me to get the thoughts of hurting someone else? I realize that it is really dangerous for me and for the ppl living with me or around me if I get these thoughts. That is the actual reason why I approached a psychiatrist. May be that I have approached the wrong psychiatrist.
I had a discussion with my Uncle here. When I told my Uncle, he pointed out to a few scenarios when I was feeling good and wanted me to find out one common thing in all those scenarios. I found out one surprising thing.... that is I had loads and loads of work whenever I was feeling good. I was able to involve myself more than ever before into the work. That's something which even the psychiatrist failed to point out. That's something which even I had not realized. AND that's something which my colleagues/friends/the entire society will laugh at...
One misconception that the society as a whole has today is that if a person has loads of work, he will be cursing himself and all others around him just coz he is unable to get personal time or that he is lazy to do his work. Well, even I am lazy on weekends, but when it comes to work or weekdays, I am the first person to start work. If someone who sees me during a weekday, sees me during a weekend, he will be shocked. If someone who sees me during a weekend, sees me during a weekday, he will be shocked too... I myself have seen two entirely different personalities. One during the weekday, doing all his work by himself, looking out for something different and interesting to do, something challenging to do. One during the weekend, just idling and lazy even to get up or sleep or do his daily chores!!!
I am unable to do the "One Post per day" task that I set to myself. I am reading a lot of Blogs, but am not feeling like commenting on them. Today is Suman's Anniversary. I wanted to post a comment on his blog, but then, felt that it would be very common to put in a comment wishing him a very happy anniversary. People might wonder as to why I do things against my feeling. It is just that I think on many things at the same time. Trust me, none of them are productive *Wink* If I had thought of many productive things at the same time, I would not be what I am today. No wonder why I get into depressions often
Till I get something to rant about... Check out this list of rants. People get many creative ideas. I fail everytime I try to think of something original and creative. It is not that I don't get creative ideas or that I am not creative enough to do something original. It is just that whenever I try to do something original, I will get a feeling that this is sick stuff.... I'll end up ditching that idea.
Let me look out for some more work or read some more blogs. If none of these work out, I'll consult another psychiatrist for my depression.
I renamed my blog from "Suksy's pages" to "Suksy's Blabberings".
I am feeling low as usual today!!! This feeling is so common now-a-days that I feel that it is just usual for me to feel depressed.
Depression, for me, often results in getting negative thoughts and that leads to dangerous situations. I either feel like hurting myself or hurting someone else. I really know that I am a psycho. A discussion with a psychiatrist gave me amazing info.. he said that it was just common for him to feel depressed too... and it is just a normal feeling in life. Amazing I tell you... even the psychiatrist is a psycho *Wink* Even he gets depressed occasionally *Smile* It is not that he should not feel depressed at all, but just that the way he told me was funny. He said that it is absolutely normal for me to feel depressed very often.
Did he ever consider that it might really be dangerous for me to get the thoughts of hurting someone else? I realize that it is really dangerous for me and for the ppl living with me or around me if I get these thoughts. That is the actual reason why I approached a psychiatrist. May be that I have approached the wrong psychiatrist.
I had a discussion with my Uncle here. When I told my Uncle, he pointed out to a few scenarios when I was feeling good and wanted me to find out one common thing in all those scenarios. I found out one surprising thing.... that is I had loads and loads of work whenever I was feeling good. I was able to involve myself more than ever before into the work. That's something which even the psychiatrist failed to point out. That's something which even I had not realized. AND that's something which my colleagues/friends/the entire society will laugh at...
One misconception that the society as a whole has today is that if a person has loads of work, he will be cursing himself and all others around him just coz he is unable to get personal time or that he is lazy to do his work. Well, even I am lazy on weekends, but when it comes to work or weekdays, I am the first person to start work. If someone who sees me during a weekday, sees me during a weekend, he will be shocked. If someone who sees me during a weekend, sees me during a weekday, he will be shocked too... I myself have seen two entirely different personalities. One during the weekday, doing all his work by himself, looking out for something different and interesting to do, something challenging to do. One during the weekend, just idling and lazy even to get up or sleep or do his daily chores!!!
I am unable to do the "One Post per day" task that I set to myself. I am reading a lot of Blogs, but am not feeling like commenting on them. Today is Suman's Anniversary. I wanted to post a comment on his blog, but then, felt that it would be very common to put in a comment wishing him a very happy anniversary. People might wonder as to why I do things against my feeling. It is just that I think on many things at the same time. Trust me, none of them are productive *Wink* If I had thought of many productive things at the same time, I would not be what I am today. No wonder why I get into depressions often
Till I get something to rant about... Check out this list of rants. People get many creative ideas. I fail everytime I try to think of something original and creative. It is not that I don't get creative ideas or that I am not creative enough to do something original. It is just that whenever I try to do something original, I will get a feeling that this is sick stuff.... I'll end up ditching that idea.
Let me look out for some more work or read some more blogs. If none of these work out, I'll consult another psychiatrist for my depression.
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