How do i start??? No, it is not that i don't have anything to say.. i do have a lot to say but how do i put it all to have a post which has a positive outcome?? I have been getting these constricted feelings in my chest on and off and they are coming from the past 3 odd years.. And one common thing with the feeling is that i wud not be having any work... Are the two related?? I dunno.
I have visited a couple of doctors and they say that there is absolutely nothing wrong with my heart or lungs.. it might just be a muscular spasm. Though I might be tempted to buy this analysis of theirs for the sake of my family and friends.. my mind feels otherwise.. There should be a reason as to why the spasms are coming so regularly.. more than once a month??? And again, this has been the case from the past two days.. twice in a row!
The whole episode is something like this:
1) Black spots in front of my eyes..
2) Partial blindness and Blurred Vision
3) Severe constricted feeling in my chest accompanied by pain in the lower left portion of my chest - just above the diaphragm.. and No, it is not coz of acidity or gastric..
4) Breathlessness
5) Vision returns to normal, no more black spots, but constricted feeling continues and breathlessness continues
6) The feeling lasts for a couple of hours and then, everything is normal.. I will be able to sit, stand, work, walk, run and jump as usual!
One of the doctors whom I consulted abt 2 and half years back asked me to get an echo done coz he suspected a missed valve beat.. and the echo reported as everything is normal. The other doctor whom I consulted about a couple of weeks back adviced me to visit an ophthalmologist and then to a neurologist to get myself checked for "Atypical Migraine". I have shrugged this off and am just enjoying life the way I was.. enjoying both the pain and pleasure ;)
Yesterday, mom was very worried coz i reached home by 1430 and today, i don't want to give her the same worries.. hence, am just gonna sit @ office working or suffering and am gonna tell lies to my mom... i don't wanna give her much more trouble.. she is already facing a lot and quite some more coz of my attitude towards my life.. and now with Aunt ill and staying at home, I also don't want to be a burden or have more expenses towards medicine, esp. this month when i am already out of money!! And I need to have some more money this time for the festival of Ganesh.
I dunno and I don't care.. as long as I am able to work and love my work, anything is fine!
I have visited a couple of doctors and they say that there is absolutely nothing wrong with my heart or lungs.. it might just be a muscular spasm. Though I might be tempted to buy this analysis of theirs for the sake of my family and friends.. my mind feels otherwise.. There should be a reason as to why the spasms are coming so regularly.. more than once a month??? And again, this has been the case from the past two days.. twice in a row!
The whole episode is something like this:
1) Black spots in front of my eyes..
2) Partial blindness and Blurred Vision
3) Severe constricted feeling in my chest accompanied by pain in the lower left portion of my chest - just above the diaphragm.. and No, it is not coz of acidity or gastric..
4) Breathlessness
5) Vision returns to normal, no more black spots, but constricted feeling continues and breathlessness continues
6) The feeling lasts for a couple of hours and then, everything is normal.. I will be able to sit, stand, work, walk, run and jump as usual!
One of the doctors whom I consulted abt 2 and half years back asked me to get an echo done coz he suspected a missed valve beat.. and the echo reported as everything is normal. The other doctor whom I consulted about a couple of weeks back adviced me to visit an ophthalmologist and then to a neurologist to get myself checked for "Atypical Migraine". I have shrugged this off and am just enjoying life the way I was.. enjoying both the pain and pleasure ;)
Yesterday, mom was very worried coz i reached home by 1430 and today, i don't want to give her the same worries.. hence, am just gonna sit @ office working or suffering and am gonna tell lies to my mom... i don't wanna give her much more trouble.. she is already facing a lot and quite some more coz of my attitude towards my life.. and now with Aunt ill and staying at home, I also don't want to be a burden or have more expenses towards medicine, esp. this month when i am already out of money!! And I need to have some more money this time for the festival of Ganesh.
I dunno and I don't care.. as long as I am able to work and love my work, anything is fine!
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