Life... live it as per your wishes

I just reached home from the cremation of my late dad's only surviving brother. I have had quite a lot of scuffles with this uncle of mine and he was also suffering from a very long time, but that did not move me in any way. I had an opinion that he got what he deserved.. all this for what??? One main thing is that he made us homeless!!!

Anyways, past things past, the only thing that came to my mind on seeing his dead body today is.. no matter what all he did, he was unable to even eat during his last days and there was none to take care of him.. the food that was being prepared for him by his family was pathetic.. as told by mom who tasted that yesterday.

No matter how much he earned or how much he swindled or how many girls he had sexually/verbally abused during his tenure as a professor in one of the greatest colleges in shimoga, the final thing was that he suffered from a very very long time and there was none who could help him or take his suffering.

He was meeting accidents very often and had many a surgery in the past.. but this time, no surgery could save him. He had kidney failure in both kidneys, diabetes and now, got gangrene and his leg was supposed to be amputated in a few days and the doc had scraped off a few tissues from his already decaying legs from which blood and puss and water was leaking. Flies were swarming over the wounds but there was none to even check that.

At the end, the only thing that i felt was, no matter whatever he did or whatever happened to him, he was not able to take a single pie even to the hospital, forget the crematorium.

I just hope that I should not be in a position of having caused hurt to anyone and I need to lead a life as per my wishes and also try to accomodate the wishes of a some other people too.. so, I think there is going to be yet another metamorphosis in me :o)