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Miss you

It is 3 years since we met, since we heard each other's voice, since you last smiled, since I last cried, since I felt truly cared for, since I felt truly caring...

Today, in 2004, you sent me to office without telling me that it would be the last time I would ever speak to you.. And you asked me to come back from office midway knowing pretty well and doing pretty well to stay till I returned... you spent the last 10 minutes with me holding my hand... and that was it!

Miss you Dad.. Had never thought I would really miss you, but it is something these days that makes me feel that if you were here, It would be really wonderful!

Am sorry for letting you go, for bringing you to Bangalore to live with me, for ignoring your health.. Please forgive me!

Please forgive those thoughts that came into my mind that I am better off now than if you were ever here... Please forgive your son who misunderstood your love and thought you did not have confidence on him!

Missing you more than ever...

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Anonymous said…
Very touching Suksy. Made me remember my dad :-(
28 December, 2007 14:27
Anonymous said…
hey just read your previous post..."i will be egoistic..selfish ...." .
U know what u have not changed yet ...never can be...there will always be a part of your dad's soul in you.
31 December, 2007 15:47
Sukumar said…
@ Sandil...

Dude, thanks for dropping by again!

@ Sari..

Do you really think I need to change?
31 December, 2007 15:53
Anonymous said…
i ddnt meant that dear .. what i want to say was ..u cant force yourself to become like the one you want .. there are things which strongly oppose these changes..the things which are inherited by you from your parents ..that is the reason you got upset when those boys hit a girl.. u tried to catch them .. was this selfish behavior of yours?? i doubt.. :)
01 January, 2008 23:46
Sukumar said…
@ Sari,

You hit the nail on the head dear...

'm egoistic; 'm selfish; but 'm social too.. as a person, I feel I am egoistic and self centered.. but at times, I do have a social angle to my persona too!

Confused??? So am I! :P
02 January, 2008 08:07
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