There is this dialogue in the movie Bunty aur Babli... in which Abhishek Bachchan says "duniya mein doh tarah ki log hotein hai, ek woh jo duniya ke marzi se jiye aur doosra woh jo apni tarah se jiye aur duniya ko apni taraf kheech laaye" or some such thing!
Today, I am having the same feeling... Life is always like a coin having two sides.. either you win or the other person wins.. (NOTE: You don't lose!) Either it comes your way (you make it come your way) or it takes you its way!
Having read Ayn Rand's Atlas Shrugged, Anthem and many such similar books, I decided that I will lead life my way.. be Egoistic, be Selfish and be happy! And am quite successful in a sense by adopting that philosophy.
I have not bothered about anyone's feelings as long as I get my work done, as long as I am true to myself, as long as I don't need to compromise or do some remote thing similar to a compromise! I have had many a scuffle with many a person over this, but I have been rarely bothered.. I have been like a drop of water on a lotus petal, unperturbed, undisturbed, detached and unmoved by anything that happens with anyone, be it with a family man or be it with a colleague or be it with a friend. (N.B.: I have been friendly with a lot of people, but friends with only a few!)
Mom tells me that I have been like this from quite some time.. and this character has been real effective in hiding my sorrow from the rest of the world when Dad passed away! But the other feeling that I evoked from them is that I did not care about anything... which is true.. and so, I did not care about this feeling of theirs too.. Mom also felt quite bad but has now got adjusted to this life of mine! :-)
But every time I reminisce, I get this feeling that I have hurt quite a lot of people and I need to apologise. However, My EGO gets the better of me and I don't apologise.
Sometime in the last fortnight, Mom dropped a bomb on me asking me to tell her what kind of a girl I like to be my wife and that she will start the lookout for a suitable bride for me from Jan onwards. Life surely seems complicated!
However, what I am gonna do is live life without planning and decide stuff at the last moment and not repent on those decisions.. I've been leading life like this and it works for me! :)
So, is it Life on the Rocks as in Vodka on the Rocks?? Or is it Life on the Rocks as in Waves hitting the Rocks?? I'm unable to decide!
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